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Tomorrow may very well be the last time I'll be on stage. It's sad. Really.

To some stages are nothing more than elevated grounds, especially if one performs for a living. But there's always something different about every stage, every audience, every performance, your partners, and yourself. Sometimes it's exciting, sometimes downright boring, sometimes your mind's just blank anyway. I can't really say I love all the moments on stage, but I know I'll miss those moments.

I'm quite surprised we still sound pretty decent after 2 months.

The commentaries for our SYF came back today and Ms Ku was reading it to us. Had quite a good laugh at how the same music can sound so different to different people, and how some comments are so totally contradicting. I like the judge who wrote on the blue paper!!! Haha. Whoever you are. :D Some of the handwrittings were horrible. Like. Worse than mine. Like. Like. LIKE ILHAM'S. HAHAHA.

I'm contemplating going for penmanship courses after A levels.

Can't find my panasonic!!! The horror. ): Nikon is far too heavy. WHY CAN'T THE CELLO BE FOLDABLE.

CTs are finally over. I screwed up this time. T.T Haha. Oh well. Thank God it's not the A levels.

Went for class lunch at Fish and Co. beside Parkmall. Shouldn't have ate the egg tart before that cause I struggled to finish the fish._. Was totally entertained by ailin and company. Then after that some of them went to watch Transformers [benaningxinbetterfinishblocksfast!] and cp sand and I went to parkmall for shopping cause I wanted to show them the cool solar clock at the Thinkess Novelty!

Parkmall is the best place to go shopping when you feel like chilling out. After being fascinated by the clocks we went to look at the furnitures and told the shop-tenders chernping is moving house so we need new furniture. HAHA. Opps my idea. Saw some nice cottage pieces here and there and tried out a dozen or so couches. There was this really comfy couch that has a lamp attached to the side for reading. Cp nearly fell asleep there while Sandra was thinking of ways to change the walk-in wardrobe into a study table. Had good laughs.

We went to some designer store at the ground level which displayed so many kitchen utensils and stuff which I had never seen before. I didn't know something called the BUTTERDISH existed! And DOLLARPINS! Haha. Seriously who uses a sugar bowl to hold sugar nowadays. People just take a small bowl and put the sugar in. Which makes it a sugar bowl what. And Mocha cups. Pour the Mocha in any cup and I'll call it the mocha cup. Interesting.

Visited a curtain shop too! :D LOVE THE CURTAINS AND THE TRIMMINGS!!! And we spent almost an hour in a shop which sold precious stones and semi precious stones. Went to the scrapbooking shop at plazasing and went home after wheezing through spotlight.

Me: Eh look this rod is like super long leh. Can hang lots of curtains.
Cp: Yeah looks like the ones we saw at the other shop.
Sandra: [Gasp] WAH SO LONG CAN USE TO PLUCK MANGOSTEEN!!!!

Bellbell's 3rd birthday! (: He had a good time ripping apart the packages for his two new soft toys. Shall add some photos the next time round.

NEFMQ is finally overrr. Not like we put much effort into it [I chionged at like 6am today!?] but at least it ended quite well cause all the RJ groups got a distinction for the prelim round! :D And another rj group won the champion so I guess it's quite a happy day for the rafflesians. Learnt quite a bit from it overall but the blog posts almost made me puke.

My team mates were really nice people[although we're always doing last minute stuff haha] and they wanted to camwhore!!??!! Like omg. Both of them brought cameras and I didn't cause I have absolutely NO IDEA where my super chio pink lumix went to.

Hair's turning even browner than before and yesterday I was utterly depressed cause I found A STRAND OF WHITE HAIR. D: D: D: D: D: As a result Chernping and Ailin had to bear with all my random whining throughout the whole day [so sorry!]. Texted Vic to whine about it and ended up laughing at every message. Haha. Sis said she had one strand when she was a teen too but it just stopped there. Hopefully the same goes for me too. Maybe I'm lacking some vitamins or minerals or something. ):

I re-read Ecclesiastes recently and gained some new insights. I should have been more hardworking and read it before the kids' lessons months ago. It would have made that particular lesson seem more solid. Sighs. Sometimes it makes me feel like a failure. When I realised that I could have done so much more for Him.

Nevermind. More chances. Like always.

Was feeling bored at the dinner table and instead of putting the Redoxon tablet into the water and drink it, I decided to put the tablet in my mouth and add water.

Result: I choked and foamed into my rice and had bits of the tablet stuck in my windpipe for half an hour. Got scolded by mum for being disgusting and almost had to skip dinner.

When they say put the tablet into a glass of water, they really mean it.

The reality of not being able to finish my revision has started to hit me. As a result I spent my whole Thursday morning feeling depressed. Why can't MOE just make me happy and give us an extra week of holidays. ):

TODAY IS SATURDAY. An unusually depressing saturday. But I'm going to pick up my sis from the airport later. Yay! But then again. The holidays are ending. The sorrow.

My mum just gave me some charcoal bread to eat. When you feel sad and bleak, trust me. Everything tastes the same. Maybe not Kinder Bueno. Just remembered I have some in the fridge! :D

Wednesday's outing with darling cabbies was FUN TO THE MAX. Must thank God for the awesome weather cause [it was really awesome] there were threats of scattered thunderstorms and stuff but it didn't affect our day at all! :D I made cheese and mushroom toast still with my eyes half closed in the morning and decided to add a little sugar icing on top. It actually turned out good. Then I experimented and came out with my own sauce (which only lichen appreciated haha), made from mustard chilli tabasco and black pepper! Brought some cherry tomatoes too.

Elyena brought her super super nice pasta, weiling brought her ham and eggs sandwich cause she's ANTI-CHEESE. D::::::::::::: WEILING WHY ARE YOU ANTI-CHEESE!? It's like one of the best things in the world leh. Shenghui brought the fruits and lichen brought drinks and chips! (: Ate and talked and played card games while we watch the super cute angmoh kids playing and climbing the trees. Talked till 8 plus in the night. And we wouldn't have left if not for the fact that it was so dark we couldn't see one another without our handphones. Haha.

Life's changed for most of us and it's harder to find things that we can all talk about together, but I'm thankful the familiar sense of humour still survives. Laughter's the best way of communication yeah. Guess we won't get to play together on the same stage again, but at least now WE EAT TOGETHER :D. I can't decide which is better, seriously. Hee.

So now the fun is over. PCME looms.

After the picnic at botanical gardens, we were relishing the good moments.

ELYENA says:
lol no lor i dont like nathan.
weiling. `the smooth rugged look says:
.____.
ELYENA says:
i like the strippers.
enqi AND CABBIES!!! says:
WTH
weiling. `the smooth rugged look says:
enqi u slowpoke leh so slow
ELYENA says:
lol open lei
weiling. `the smooth rugged look says:
LOL OMG
ELYENA says:
haha vanessa hudgens lei.
weiling. `the smooth rugged look says:
disgusting
ELYENA says:
you dont like mei!


weiling. `the smooth rugged look says:
enqi send the pics leh haha
enqi AND CABBIES!!! says:
DAMN FUNNY
enqi AND CABBIES!!! says:
of the strippers?!
ELYENA says:
haha yahyah
ELYENA says:
send her!
ELYENA says:
she want.

Elyena likes strippers. That's new.

And I don't have pictures of the strippers. Haha.

There are days when I feel
The best of me is ready to begin
Then there're days when I feel
I'm letting go and soaring on the wind

'Cause I've learned in laughter or in pain
How to survive

I get on my knees
I get on my knees
There I am before the love that changes me
See I don't know how
But there's power
When I'm on my knees

I can be in a crowd
Or by myself almost anywhere
When I feel there's a need
To talk with God He is Emmanuel

When I close my eyes
No darkness there
There's only light

I don't know how but there's power
In the blue skies
In the midnight
When I'm on my knees

-On My Knees, by Jaci Velasquez

Rvco's all-time favourite is being put into a time capsule. And basically they won't play it for the next 50 years? But since technological advancements have allowed us to photocopy scores, it defeats the purpose, doesn't it? Guess everyone understands the reason why it was decided that we will not play it again, but there's just something weighing your heart down, knowing that you won't hear it at zhiyins anymore. No matter how bad it sounds.

AND. Didn't we just bury a time capsule 2 or 3 years ago.

It is not just a song anymore, when more than 10 generations are bonded by ONE song. It's something that determines an identity. Striking away a piece because no one enjoys it as much as you want them to isn't a valid reason, when it is the main part of the fabric which holds generations of students together.

Keep some, forgo some. Wisely.

But I guess the decision was not made on impulse, especially when it was made by someone who loved the orchestra most, and loved our song most. Must have been painful.

Sprained my ankle yesterday night while walking across the living room and fell with a thud onto the floor. It was epic, really. And the whole family was sleeping and no one actually heard anything. .__. The dog came out, looked at me, and walked back to his bed to sleep. Heartless.

Texted Vic to ask for tips on what to do with a sprained ankle [thanks pal your soccer practices have equipped you VERY well! :D] Tried icing my ankle but fell asleep doing so. Cp gave me some really funny tips like "dipping" my "foot into water so it becomes soggy like chicken wing" and "drink more milk". [!!!??!!!] Haha drunkard.

This photo does no justice to the bruise on my toe. It's like dark purple now. But it looks quite cool. One of my favourite colours leh.

So toonwei most prob has to attend the whole of the 6 hours of the talks. And I can't go for chamber farewell too. ):

Finally the June vacation is here! HAHA SHOPPING!!! :D

And studying. D:

This whole week was tiring to say the least. And I just found out there's a TEN YEAR SERIES for the nefmq. [!!??!!??!] And the pile of holiday homework and undone revision is staggering. Oh well. But the GSS still goes on! :D Time to hunt down the camera. Was looking for it at the IT fair at suntec that day but they didn't even bring in the model. D: So disappointing.

This week was crazy and tiring.

During econs tutorial, I casually balanced one zig marker on my table and found it extremely thrilling and addictive. Then I balanced more markers from motherjo and sheena. So pretty! Then muz went to jerk sheena's chair on something and her table shook and the my table shook and my structure collapsed like the Berlin wall. And angered Ms Ong. ): Sorry ms ong!

Haha emo. Bell experiences a hectic and intense internal life while he slugs around all day.

Can't wait for picnic with cabbies batchmates!!! :D

Went to watch Angels and Demons with sis on Friday after shopping with chernping. Haha shopping was quite fun and I managed to ambush chernping with some toilet perfume that made her smell like the toilet air freshener for at least the next hour. But our shopping was quite futile cause we were constantly distracted by evil external factors that made us deviate from our prime reason for shopping. Evil was in the air. HAHA.

The movie was not bad, partly because I find Tom Hanks a very pleasant person. (: Objectively, the soundtrack was not bad, and there were some twists in the plot as well [although it didn't exactly function a twist since we read the book already]. Rome is so freaking beautiful.

Valerie came back from Eastern Europe! That lucky girl. Now I am so tempted to go to Budapest. Seriously.

Hmmm. Kind of lost right now. Sometimes after doing so much, I forget the reason why I'm doing the things I do. Things can be perfect, but once humans are added into the equation everything that can possibly go wrong goes wrong. I don't understand why some things are done in certain ways and it wastes everyone's time. I can be quite a rebel sometimes when I don't see why respect should be given. Being misunderstood is a horrible feeling as well. Are people inflexible or is the way I'm doing things lacking in discipline or order, I don't even know. And what's there too be so disciplined about anyway. Or maybe I should get used to it. But it's hard to do anything that doesn't make sense, or perhaps, do things that lack in effectiveness. Still keeping silent to get the bigger picture of things. In need of divine help.

Actually the thoughts are all over my head and I have yet to find the composure to piece them together to make a coherent and concise paragraph. Ranting on in a blog doesn't help solve anything anyways. ARGH.

Endure.

Had our last chamber rehearsal today. Sighs. My irritating elmo's song ringtone rang halfway when we were playing Barber's adagio for strings. Anticlimax to the max.

Joyjoy gave each of us a nice personalised card with our chamber photos printed on it! THANKS JOY!!! [Haha I know you're reading my blog!!! :D] Guess I'll miss chamber after this. And my section! Especially my hyperactive desk partner [erhem]. Who always asks for entertainment and who never listens out for bar numbers. (: HAHA and I'll miss being the shortest among you cello giants!

After that fenwee peikhee and I went for dinner at Subway and pk and I were teasing fw like crazy. Too bad fw, that your vasodilation is so effective. HAHA.

Shortly after fw started to insult me. We were talking about the cookies halfway and then she suddenly went "enqi I think you should go for plastic surgery for double eyelids." And after some random conversation she started to convince me to go for Botox.

!!!!!!!?????????!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so ugly meh. D: Pok you fw.

Math test tomorrow. Don't feel like studying for it. Heh.

Oh and anyway, I have finally found a feasible career path! I WANT TO BE A GP TEACHER!!! Muahaha. Miss Ooi will be so proud of me. :D

PE with 6K was SUPERRRRR fun today!!! Seriously. We totally screwed our volleyball game and kept laughing throughout till I almost choked. The unpredictable crystal randomly did a let-me-hit-the-ball-to-the-gallery stunt in the MPH. Cp's tennis-volley techniques were hilarious. Can't wait for next PE and our next break. Every free block in the canteen is so interesting, I must never miss any one of it till we graduate from RJ.

Argh no idea for the blog comment post thing. And we're supposed to at least write once a week. D:

Chem class test tomorrow. HAHA I'll be conducting chem test leh!!! :D So exciting. MUAHAHAHA. But I haven't studied for it yet. Dang.

Eventful day.

First block was GP and I rushed out an essay. Miss Ooi is getting more and more adorable by the day.

Then after a short civics lesson was Skill A Chem SPA. Rushed through as well. After that I felt like I got punched a thousand times in the head, dragged myself to the canteen to get food. Rushed off to General Office to wait for the bus to bring our class for learning journey! :D

I felt REALLY drained in the bus so I slept all the way from school to the ferry station where we waited with all the other students from the other JCs to get ourselves on the long-awaited ferry. The ferry ride to Pulau Tekong was more enjoyable than I thought!!! There were comfortable seats and the ferry was AIRCON-ED!!!! Goodness. I never knew ferries were air conditioned.

Finally arrived at BMTC and the tour around was really quite enriching because I finally know how a bunk looks like [according to yuanyuan it's better than her hostel haha] and what food they eat for their outfield missions and stuff. Handled a fake gun and shot at a MASSIVE target and did not even hit it. D: Didn't know my aiming was so bad!!! Seriously, if that situation was real I would have just thrown a dagger across. It would have hit the target on the first try._.

Learnt about the equipment and the camouflage cream and the SOC. Heheh. And of course, Ailin's sick jokes+class participation entertained everyone throughout the bus ride back to school.

At 7.30pm, Sand and I took the train to Orchard to buy CP's pressie. Like OMG. Both of us were damn lost. We took 20 minutes to figure out how to get out of taka and get back to the MRT station because we went out of taka, realised we were at the wrong side of the building, tried to circle the building and ended up outside Mandarin Hotel, went back in again through an underpass we thought would lead to the MRT station, realised we actually went back into the building, started looking for wisma and then went back successfully through wisma. We should never travel anywhere together unaccompanied by someone else. Never. Ever. Again.

Tired. Sleep.